Shoo fly, don’t bother me;

I fucking mean it.  Bzzzz bzzzz bzzzz away to another place!

I try not to bring out my personal life and have it interfere with my blog, that’s obviously a post about my personal life (in pictures) and my drawings.  But I’ve been feeling a bit down lately.  As you all may have known, I was out of the country for a good month with my family.  I was really excited to see my family from Malaysia, since the last time I ever saw them was when I was just four years old.  But more importantly, I was happy for my mom.  (She left the country, the day after her wedding, just twenty-five years ago, to be in America.)  Everything was cool and all, until her passport got confiscated by the government over there and ever since then she’s been fighting for her passport to be returned to her because her kids are American born citizens and she needs to come back for many reasons.  As each week passes, I feel for my mom, not being able to come back to the American soil.  I pray, in my head and in my heart, for her to come back soon.  I try not to blame on myself, but sometimes, I have a tendency to over think on things that I shouldn’t worry about because I know the moment I worry about something, my anxiety will start taking over me and I will somehow lose self control in myself.  So I feel like this is karma, throwing lemons at me, telling me to stop relying on my mom, especially, when it comes to financial issues and everything else.  Don’t get me wrong, I am always appreciative and words can never describe my gratitude when it comes to my mom or anyone helping me.  I feel lucky to have a wonderful, easy-going mom, that truly believes in me, sees that I have potential and tells me to go after everything I want to do in life.  I guess it brings me to this part in my life, where I am a struggling college student, who’s jobless and living with distant relatives, and feeling frustrated that the stupid financial aid department decided to not return my call or reply to my emails.   But I am happy and hopeful that things will work out fine.  I’m just glad I still have a roof on my head, and being well fed with healthy foods, and just in a clean environment.  Everything may be bad at this moment, for anyone, but when you keep your hopes and try to better yourself and do good for others and yourself, things will eventually lighten up and go to whatever direction you want in life.

Anyway, I hope you all had a good week or a good first week of school.

Good night and thanks for reading~*

👻🎃Starting my spooky series, since Halloween’s just around the corner! 🎃👻 #halloween #wednesdayaddams #illustration #roughdraft #spooktacular #characterdesign #sketchbook #elaineycornart #myart #artistoninstagram #micronpens #prismacolor

👻🎃Starting my spooky series, since Halloween’s just around the corner! 🎃👻 #halloween #wednesdayaddams #illustration #roughdraft #spooktacular #characterdesign #sketchbook #elaineycornart #myart #artistoninstagram #micronpens #prismacolor

Eye-dee-kay?? #roughsketch #sketchbook #elaineycornart #illustration #artistoninstagram #morningdoodles

Eye-dee-kay?? #roughsketch #sketchbook #elaineycornart #illustration #artistoninstagram #morningdoodles

A wild rabbit appeared #lilbunbun #whiterabbit

A wild rabbit appeared #lilbunbun #whiterabbit

Being #sadgirls because it was our last day together, before I go back to San Francisco 😭💔 #dabae #cutiewiffdabootie #mylove #bestfriend #missu

Being #sadgirls because it was our last day together, before I go back to San Francisco 😭💔 #dabae #cutiewiffdabootie #mylove #bestfriend #missu

Rubber ducky, you’re the one.  You make bath time so much fun 😂 #giantrubberduckie #sanpedro

Rubber ducky, you’re the one. You make bath time so much fun 😂 #giantrubberduckie #sanpedro

Expectation vs. Reality at a music festival.  

Interpol, finally~* #elpintor

Interpol, finally~* #elpintor

Second year in a row; here we go!  Thank you mommy! 😎💕 #fyf2014

Second year in a row; here we go! Thank you mommy! 😎💕 #fyf2014

All the hype for this sailor scout 🌙 #sailormoon #usagi #roughsketch #commission #request #fanart #myart #elaineycornart #artistoninstagram #cartoon #anime #pinup

All the hype for this sailor scout 🌙 #sailormoon #usagi #roughsketch #commission #request #fanart #myart #elaineycornart #artistoninstagram #cartoon #anime #pinup